Fade

I look, look
hoping to see
Staring out so far, something must be.
But it isn't
not here
No joy, no thought, no pain no fear
Emotions blank
mind aground
as much as I may look around
Deserted all
featureless plains
a single mind, all that remains.
Struggling,
searching endlessly
while unchange presses relentlessly
against it's
every thought
As it searches, for what is not.
You see
things change
vary, mutate, evolve, derange.
Inspiration is
momentary, then done -
a wisp of cloud, fading in the sun.